Saving the Addict

It's been a couple of days since I've posted, I've been reading alot of web info on addiction and I found another site that is so informative that I need to share it with you guys.
http://www.nida.nih.gov/Infofacts/understand.html

It was very good wasn't it? Some times my days go by so fast and others it just crawls by. I don't always understand why my days are like that but I can tell you that I'm usually very happy and content.

http://www.recoveryconnection.org/addiction/drug-addiction-treatments.php

http://www.drug-addiction.com/addiction_is_illness.htm

I know I send you guys to alot of links but if I didn't think they were important in helping I promise I wouldn't be share....Pease & Love

BILLY

Seeing the drug addict in the mirror

Well world today is a very beautiful day for me, it's a happy day for me I'm so glad to be alive. I think back on those days that I'm not feeling it and think, I never imagined then I'd be were I am today with my addiction free life. I still know a few people whom no matter what I say or do to help them, I feel as though I'm hitting my head against a brick wall. Then I think Billy,that's me you were the exact same way a few years back. I'd ask myself why should I quite? I realized at that time I never looked in the mirror and really look at myself, GOD I was a tweaker a worthless tweaker! People now I look at myself with such pride in what I've accomplish by Kicking all my addictions, it took strength and inner piece after a time.

Hey morning my public it's Monday and I've changed the name of my blog because I think it fits what I'm all about.I have of course opened my eyes but I needed something that would be hit upon more when some one in need searchs for and looking for help kicking addiction. I was a smoker, Meth addict and an Opiate addict and by looking deep inside myself and realizing I didn't need those things. They were actually killing me I knew it was time to stop. Here's a couple of links that might help? Thanx for reading my blog it really makes me feel good.
http://www.alive.com/319a1a2.php?subject_bread_cramb=323

http://kick-addiction.com/contact-us/

http://www.nida.nih.gov/podat/faqs.html

Dreary Sunday

Today's Sunday and for some odd reason I'm kind depressed, But I look at it as one of those days that need to be so I know the difference between good days and bad days. Right now it's overcast outside not even one of those days I can run outside and look up at the beautiful blue sky and think boy I'm so lucky to be alive. I'm going to share a few links with you guys I know they'll be more informative then my short paragraph this dreary afternoon.
http://www.wired.com/wired/archive/13.01/detox.html?pg=1&topic=detox&topic_set=

http://www.drugabuse.gov/scienceofaddiction/health.html

http://www.helpguide.org/mental/drug_substance_abuse_addiction_signs_effects_treatment.htm

http://www.drugsno.com/addiction.htm

ADDICTION FREE

You Know guys I've been so happy,feeling so good about myself that I haven't sat down in days to think about my blog let alone post anything. Hey! but here I am now feeling guilty that I haven't been sharing with friends who might be following me and my recovery and Addiction free life. I'm not at my computer right now but give me an hour and I'll share some link with you that I find informative and worth a minute to look at? What a beautiful day addiction free and feeling awesome about myself

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I want to start off with this video because it is so right on.

Addiction information

Sorry people you haven't heard from me in a few days but this weekend was my Birthday. I'd like to perhaps talk about a few of the links I've been looking at in regards to addiction:
http://www.alive.com/319a1a2.php?subject_bread_cramb=323 This site is all about alcohalics but for the few that I know I think it is very important information.


I find this Utube video another informative piece of information.
I'm going to post this now but I will add to it later this afternoon

Addiction and research

You know people I've been reading loads of research on addiction, and the Idea that it is or maybe pathological http://www.abc.net.au/rn/healthreport/stories/2009/2653827.htm These two Doctors:Barry Everitt and Norman Swan are so informed so smart that I couldn't take my eyes of there study. I think those who get me and understand the way I think will find them a very good read and just one step closer to understanding themselves. I found a very interesting Addicts website that I think can be of help to those that unlike myself need fellowship and closer guidance in finding themselves and ways out from under their addiction. http://www.intherooms.com/hitch/view?id=adwordssupportgroups

Hey I'm very excited soon you'll find my blog chalk full of fun, Informative things, I'm picking new things up everyday. If you are reading this have peace and thank you

Another addition I'm thinking

I'm sitting here at my computer again, I've been so lost in it that I go to bed thinking about my blog. I wake every morning for the last 5 days in a roll, thinking how can I improve the content of this page I sit every morning upset with myself for not being more talented or creative, Gees people that's starting to sound like an addiction to me. So people what I'm going to do is post every 3 days instead of daily. That will give me the opportunity to read and research the best most informative ways to express my feeling, I very much hate running my mouth without a point to be made. If you are reading me today thank you

Kicked my drug addict ways

I've spent another lunch hour reflecting back on my life as a worthless druggie. This is what I was thinking, Gosh I never remembered a beautiful sunny afternoon, that is because I never was up before the 5 o'clock rush hour. Isn't that sad and pathetic? I use to tell myself and basically anyone the would listen"I ENJOY MY DRUGS AND WILL ALWAYS DO THEM" isn't that the most sick quote you ever heard? I really had people believing that I was broke and could never ever be fixed. So people once I came to realize; I was broke and really needed to be fixed. I was a stupid idiot, and I was scared. I was truly afraid I had burnt bridges I would need to change my life, I couldn't have been more wrong. I still run into to old acquaintances that can't believe I've changed my life. Once I was honest with myself, that my life style was wrong and needed changing. My new life is bright, I can remember every beautiful day since I opened my eye.

A boost with Supplements

Today is another one of those feel good days, I woke very early which lately has been unusual for me. I'm think because I workout everyday 90/7/365 that's an hour and a half 7 days a week all year round. I've also been taking a multivitamin and a one aday fish-oil with my HIV cocktail and I'll tell you with complete certainty that those two supplements are a large part of my healing. I find that I've been spending alot of time alone even in a gym full of people. You know I think spending all your time alone is not a good thing, it can deeply effect your health. I've been finding lately that putting down in word what I think and what I want to say to help people control there addictions feels so good to me.I really want to help anyone willing to give me the opportunity to help them. I gave up 3 of the most addictive drugs known to man Nicotine,Meth and Vicodin and let me tell you the side effects of addiction are heavy. People I must apologize my mind has been jumping all over the place this morning. Let me get my thought together and I'll be more helpful and informative later in the day.

Addiction,my thoughts on kicking drugs

Let me tell you what I think, Kicking your addiction should always have a prime motive and I'm going to tell you some of the reasons I don't think you should use as yours. I can't afford it, I'm not going to steal to get it, because selling it is not an option, because my friend say I should quit, wait a minute when you're an addict you don't have friends, Because my family said I should quit
wait a minute when you're an addict you tend to avoid your family. Let me tell you what I think...THE ONLY PERSON YOU NEED TO DO THIS FOR IS YOU, because until you decide that you are going to do this for you, and no one else you will fail.

Side effect of addiction

Gosh people I woke this morning feeling awesome, You know it wasn't always like this, there'd be morning I'd wake feeling like dirt. I mean hands and feet would be swollen from my abussive use of meth the only thought on my mind was can I afford to get more drugs today. I'll tell you that is a misserable life. I use to think that being a night person was fun and the thing to be, That wasn't a life at least I came to understand that being high all the time and living in the dark wasn't a life at all. I thought I was happy for a long time and even though I was lonely my heart was sad and for most of my adult life I only listened to my heart when it suited my addiction?
I want any addict that might be reading my blog to know that freeing your life from additive behavior is painless and looking back on my life the way it was? that makes me sad but yet I'm so proud of myself.

Follow me Home

I just wanted to start out this morning just talking about bad habits I picked up while in my addicted state. Let me tell you that even as a worthless addict, If you are born with a big heart you must live with a big heart and that's why I'd find myself bring home strays from off the street and I don't mean the 4 legged kind either. Bringing these strays home with me was at times a big mistake, you see I wasn't a very good judge of character and many would rob me blind. There was only one that followed me to a clean, healthier life "JAMES" the best. I look forward to any comments from my readers that will help me create a fun, insightful perhaps educational look back into my life as I remember it? Know this readers, in my 45 yr 357 day life time the most important, most precious quality is honesty.

Everymorning I wake

You know on the 11th you can go back 46 years where it began. I was born a twin, a particularly handsome baby. Now the question is do I start that early or do I fast forward to the late teen?
I haven't quite decided yet so let me tell you what my blog is about, basically it is about me, my life as a worthless drug addict through the years and effort it took to open my eyes and see how wonderful life is without the weight, poverty and pain of addiction. I will be providing you with alot of incite into what it took me personally to beat my addictions and living with HIV. On this OCT 11, I will be 46 years old and I couldn't be happier and more pleased with my life then I am right now